past, present or future?

I'll be such a hypocrite if I'd deny that I want to live in the past all over again. I want that more than ever but I can't afford to dwell in the past. I wanna make life go on but then I can't help but cast one last glance in your direction every time you say goodbye and start to walk away to an existence entirely separate from my own. I keep my eyes on you until the last hair on your head is out of my sight, trying to preserve every detail of your appearance in my memory until the time I will see you again.